Revival

Hello guys! This is my humble attempt to go back to blogging LOL
Inspired by my friend pinkyniakoh and her blog hahaha. And also to record down some more interesting stuff that's happening in my life. I can't even remember significant stuff that happened last year or previous month or the start of this year blablabla.

Anyway, quick update of my life:

My beloved fatty, Liew Lele

My other beloved fatty, aka boyfriend since forever, Louis 

My babes, the CB clique 

My sisters who grew up together with me :)

I lead a simple life with very little friends hahaha.

Stay tuned for more updates!!!! I hope I will be hardworking like pinkyniakoh.
p/s Follow me @wenshyy on instagram and twitter for more more more more regular updates!

Byebye

Diary 2304

Second week of school and I can't wait for the holidays already.

Days in poly. "Say long not long, say short also not short"

My direct translation from chinese. Well I'm just glad that I only have to take 4 study modules and one idea shit module, and only 2 is examinable. Non-examinable modules are more relaxing WHEN it comes to exam period, duh. But before that it's those mf projects. Really feel like pulling my hair out.

And then there's the idea shit module. Best part about it is making new friends. My lecturer this time round is some old man who is kinda a laid back, flexible person. Too flexible, not literally, it annoys me. And the shit ass projects. Wasting my time. Okay, what a ya-ya thing to say LOL "waste my time".

Here I am complaining about school, how much I wished there was no school, but I've only 2 more years being a student, if not 3 or 4 more if I'm able to get into a university? Then that's it. My 20 years of studying (I've included kindergarten) is O-V-E-R. I don't wanna grow up. I want to be young.

School matters aside, I think I've to learnt to take things my stride (?), and not be so tensed up. Learn to relaxxxxxxxxxxxx, and not always think that things will be bad bad bad. 'Cause really, things are better than I thought they would be. Stop thinking bad and learn to enjoy.

I read this tweet and found it really really meaningful. I took a screenshot of it, and when again I view a matter at its worst, I'll read it and hopefully feel better.

"Everything in life is temporary.

If things are going good, enjoy it.

If things are going bad, don't worry.

It can't last forever either."

Gonna be flying off to Switzerland in (exactly) 4 days time! Hope it's gonna be good! 

Good night x.

Annoying Electronics

I am very annoyed (and worried) right now. It's especially frustrating when your eps cock up. In my case, I'm gonna talk about my hard disk.

I bought my 1TB hard disk, and hardly used it. Just backed up some songs and pictures which were verrrrry little cause I was lazy. Then I lent Eugenia. Took back from her, left it on the shelf for a while, and POOF, it stopped working properly. Extreeeeeeeeeeeemely annoying. It's $120, and I barely used it! Grrrrrr.

Then I noticed the wire was a little loose, so I went to buy another cable, hoping that THAT is the cause of my not working hard disk. Just tried it (wrong cable but could fit, I don't know), DOES NOT WORK AT ALL.

I mean the computer detects the hard disk, but it doesn't show in Computer. Worse of all, I am not good at electronical stuff, and no one can actually and bothers to really really put their heart to help me. Pissed off.
It's the $100 and a waste of this thing. And I don't know how to warranty  shit works cause I don't have my receipt. GETTING MORE AND MORE ANNOYED AS I TYPE THIS.

And last night, my half a month old Fujitsu laptop, blue screened on me. Thank you very much.
Bless you Fujitsu, you must survive cause I don't know where the service centre is, and hopefully will never need to know.

In the meanwhile, anyone who can actually help me with my hard disk problem? Kind-hearted it whizzes perhaps? :( really feel like crying. ONE HUNDRED AND TWENTY DOLLARS SITTING ON THE SHELF EVERY DAY. Sigh, tearing as I type this.

Goodnight, school in a week. Not looking forward.

SAMANTHA YYT P.S.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
WHY IS MY PERMISSION TO READ YOUR BLOG DENIED!? U NO LOVE ME ANYMORE? :(

Pimple Face

*Still not getting used to this laptop's keyboard and its screen thingy sigh*

I have like six big pimples on my face currently. The swelly, red, painful kind. This does not include the small ones on the forehead and sometimes beside the nose. Worse outbreak for 17 years and 9 months.

I wonder if it's the hair dye. I don't remember being exposed to any other chemically, potential-pimple-causing stuff, other than the Wonderbrown hair dye. Pimples suck.

Went out with Vanessa today. Kinda walked around aimlessly like what I always do when I'm alone. Wasn't in a going out form/shopping form. Had this reeeeeeeeeeeally strange feeling at the tummy & above the tummy. I suspect it's serious indigestion. Felt a tad dizzy some times. Felt like puking most of the time. Cabbed home. Sigh, felt instantly better on the cab. Maybe it's the jellybean, not too sure about that.

Pimples pimples pimples. Taking extra care of my face these few days. I think I'm overdoing it. But at the same time, I scratch my face and pimple while typing (loads of germs on keypads) and while using phone. So......................

BBQ in 12+++ hours time! Kinda excited to the good food. Busy tomorrow and monday and maybe tuesday and maybe wednesday too. Oh yeah.

Wan an every one.

My weak spot is definitely kids and animals, especially cats and dogs.

In dramas, I would tear when the pets are sad, or when kids cry, but now upgrade to when the handsome male lead tears. Hahaha.

My heart also tend to cringe a bit whenever I see those stray animals. I feel like doing something for them. Giving them a bit of my love perhaps? It doesn't cost anything anyway. But I've never done anything for them. And I don't know what to do either. I've thought of joining as a volunteer at some pet shelter. Gonna go ask Samantha if she's interested (and free) to go with me. Otherwise I'll just drag Louis to go with me (help him gain some good karma at the same time too).

Sigh, at this point of time I feel so useless. Somehow animals are able to pull my heart to them more than children. Maybe it's because the animals are unable to do anything by themselves? I don't know..... Just somehow.

That's why (one of) my ambitions when I was young was to be a vet. But..... hahaha, forget it.

Guess I'm gonna email a few pet shelters later, since I won't be finding a job whatsoever till school starts. That's maybe 2-3 weeks?

On the other hand, I felt so good about myself today. It's a good day. Felt pretty & slim. Overall like not bad looking. Hehehe.

I wish for all those little ones out there to be safe and sound, and feel slightly better about themselves. They are not ugly, the world is.

Thinnest Line

Between life and death, is a really thin line.

Watched Charlie St. Cloud last week, One Day just now. Both had death related to them. And Louis' Bloomer. Death is kinda a stranger to me, till now. When I really think about it, I get all confused. The mentality of 'they will never come back' makes me cringe with confusion. It gets really scary when it comes to a point when the meaning of 'never' pricks you all of a sudden.

Life suddenly feels more brittle that ever. Well, I guess it's still a part of life that nothing and no one can dodge away from. Wonder how it feels like.....



On a side note, I'm forever feeling so inferior and insecure. Slowly changing into a different person, a character that I've never thought of being.

I've never been called a quiet person till recently. It's uncontrollable. I just wish to be alone, I don't want people to come and talk to me because it makes me feel so uneasy. When did I become such a person, unfriendly. Sigh at my life.

I don't know, I don't know.... No more thinking for today. Good night.

Random thoughts

The same thing happened again, yes again.

So jealous, so envious of other people. Richer, more clothes, more bags, cooler, more fun lives. But there seems to be this thing that reminds me to not be so shallow. These are materials that are not to die for, and even if they are, I mustn't be upset that I don't have them. Cause when you gain something, you lose something. I'll always keep that in mind.

Last day of boring trade show tomorrow, feeling like a bastard, don't know whether to do or not. Planning to go for manicure session and hair dyeing & treatment session after that, as if I have all the time in the world.
Gonna be out with Aunts & Cuz on Saturday. It has been really long.

I remember the Saturdays where my third Aunt would bring me out. I was kind spoiled by her (and my parents). Going out means can buy one thing, a toy, shirt or something, and only eating at restaurants. Luckily miser Louis Saw saved me. Coffee shops, no problem!

Goodnight everyone, x.