Trust Issues

No one trusts me or the things I say. Is it because I am stupider than the world?

 

 

Ever since I've decided to "study 10 hours, score 80 points" and not "study 20 hours, score 100 points", it has become more difficult for me to get down to studying and all. Since last week, I've been telling myself I need to start. Procrastinate till this week. Finally managed to get started on Monday. But, it's just 2,3 hours every day, till yesterday. Hopefully, today will be more productive.

Tennis this morning was awesome. Felt really active & energetic. Maybe it's cause I unloaded the burden in my large intestine. Hehe. I never used to be daring enough to go to public toilets alone. I did this time, and it was okay. Wasn't totally alone, cause there were many aunties. Then it struck me. I wanna be braver.

Ciao people.
by the way, should i learn german, spanish or french? currently considering only french & german. :)

Things That Trouble Me

Money problems, sigh. 谈钱伤感情 is absolutely true, no joke at all. Some times I really hate money. Money is what every one is working for. Some people hurt others just to get this money. Come to think of it, money is just paper that smells, and some thing used in exchange for things.
I wanna work harder, and not have money issues next time. I don't need to be Bill Gates rich. I just want to be normal, affording things that I like & want, and my kids too of course, and that we can go on holidays occasionally, probably once a year at least. Okay kinda greedy actually, but ya, that's my aim!

Then it's height problems. Many envy me, "your size so cute", "guys all like petite girls one yknow!"
Sometimes I just want to be taller. People used to (still are) make fun of me and my height. When I'm in a good mood, I'll just laugh it off, no harm I know. But when it's a blue-day, I actually cringe a bit and cry inside... Hahaha, emo nemo.

Fats issue. My stubborn fats are really more stubborn than 10 donkeys combined.

School problems. Work-wise and relationship-wise.

Inferiority issues. I feel inferior easily, like DUPER easily I admit. Nice double eyelids, long eye lashes, nice nose, nice lip shape, good complexion, nice hair, nice legs, nice legs, nice legs, nice legs, nice bag, nice wallet, nice clothes, nice shoes, nice car, nice house, nice friends, nice life and it goes on and on and on and on and on.........


Anyway, Jieshy and Channy are coming over to my place tomorrow for a CNY gathering. I'm gonna be preparing all the food, and opening a moscato I got my mum to get for me. It's like MINEEEEE. <3
Disappointed that Sammy & Belly aren't able to make it. It's like a rare thing to come to my place, really really rare. I like the feeling, I hope my kids' friends would come to my house often. I'll give them nice food.

Good night tulips (T for Things That Troubles), time flies, it's almost 1.
Stop your procrastination and start preparing for exams, Liew Wen Min. 不怕死吗?!!?!?

Dragon Year 2012

Chinese New Year's Eve:

Reunion lunch was steamboat at maternal grandmother's place, and dinner was also steamboat at paternal grandmother's place. It's basically the same every year, but I am not gonna take that from granted because our grandparents won't be with us forever.

CNY Day 1:

Traditional Hakka food for brunch. It's something we only get to eat once a year. I used to find them mehhhhz, but this year I was genuinely excited about it, and really appreciated it. Here's how it looks :)

 

There's tau kwa with some veg on the top left, then mock fishballs with peas. In the centre is vermicelli with idk, then bottom left is black fungus with something, and bottom right is mock cod. There is also mock char siew. The char siew and cod are my all time favourite. :)
(Haha thought that people might me interested to know what they are ^^)

After that is dinner at maternal grandma's place again with a bit of gambling with my uncle and cousins. But some how the feeling isn't really there I don't know why.

Day 3:

Send my parents off to Taiwan, and freedom starts nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!! Okay actually I was really really excited that my parents are going overseas. It would only be me, my brother and me at home. Looking forward to THAT freedom omg. But when I hugged them goodbye, I realised there were tears welling up in my eyes, sigh I am emotional like that.
Then went to temple, then to Shyanne's place. :)

Gambled with a bit more feeling hahaha, luck is not bad this year.
After that went to Louis' place, for the first time~ *blushes
Went back quite late, and my brother went back to school. The whole house empty.. pretty scary actually.


This year's chinese new year on the whole was much more eventful as compared to others, probably because of the freedom I have. Hahaha missing it already.

Lovin' every one in my life, FOR REAL!!  

Okay ciaos!