The Grass is Greener In The Head

I realise through a few occasions that things always seem better in the (my) head, or worse sometimes.

Like thinking you screwed something, mapping out the worse case scenarios in your head. When actually it turns out just okay. That's good.

But when you are so very excited and anticipating for something. You plan every thing in your head, every single detail, put in effort in preparation, imagining the expression on the other party(ies) faces. Then your heart starts beating quicker cause of the adrenalin caused by your excitement. But when the thing really happens, many things work opposite. Time seem to pass extra fast. The details that you've spent hours thinking about turns out wrongly planned. People seem to bring that tad bit of problem to you. Every thing so hectic and chaotic and before really enjoying anything, it's over.

Well I guess this is life. People like me think a lot and tend to over-think, over-worry, over-anticipate. All these should be harmful I guess. But I can't stop myself, I can't prevent, I can't avoid.

I had a great day today, with one of the two scenarios above, will great pictures taken that makes me view them over and over again.

The feelings, so close yet so far.

Goodnight. ♥

Camcam

I wanna trusty camera to follow me around wherever I go, but life seems to be a bore in Singapore, I don't know... I think I should have more outdoor stuff compared to indoor shopping and all. I really prefer outdoor activities - outings, picnics, excursions. Actually there are many places to go, just that............ it's always shopping. I mean I love shopping but I want to do different things. Okay, that will be my resolution for 2012. More resolutions to follow. :')

My Christmas 2011

24/12: My christmas this year was almost like every other year, with cousins coming over to my place for a mini party. It's pot-luck this year! Overall, it's yeah the same feeling cause with the same group of people. I really like these little gatherings a lot. :')

I suddenly realise that we didn't take any group photos............... 

I don't know why I can't upload the photos :/ anyway (if there's anyone even reading or interested haha) it's on my FaceBook! :)

25/12: Party at Chantel's

Haha cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. More photos on facebook facebook facebook.
My sisters are really a big big big part of my life and I'm glad I have them. Though we do not talk every day, we do not meet every week, we're always laughing at each other. But I still love them so so much. There is also Isabel who is my bestie who is always MIA-ing, we meet probably once in two to three months.

I'll introduce them (randomly) and other loves in my life under 'My Favourite People' hahaha. Like a cool.

Anyway, Christmas is one of my favourite festivals though we don't really buy gifts for every one or anything. I think from next year we will have (I'll organise) gift exchange! Okay sisters??? :)

Well, it's a mere 2 weekdays + 2 weekends before the new school term starts again. It'll be busy and will end really quick. Times flashes, really scarily.

I've tennis later, lazy to travel, but really want to exercise. Okay ciaos. :) Merry belated Christmas!

My Favourite People (I)

  

My handsome boyfriend of 3 years (as of today), Louis Saw.

Louis and I, quarrels every day. A day without quarreling feels a bit weird, and kinda new to us haha. I mean it's not that good to be in a relationship when you're like 14/15 but ya. Zzzzzzz.
I want to thank you, Saw, for always treating me like a piece of tofu, helping me carry this carry that, do this do that. When I obviously am a very independent and strong person (ask my sisters). It's funny how we're quarreling and scolding each other every other day but yet we stay together for so long, we have good stamina yeh?

What I love about you, Saw:
1) your height
2) your pimpleless skin
3) your chest and shoulders and arms (you're welcomed)
4) your niang-ness
5) your thick-skin
6) your weird sense of humour, that leads to your funny laughter
7) your weird obsession with the number 7
8) your good English and spelling
.............................................. and many more I am not gonna say cause it'll be so cheesy and mushy. Well, like what I always remind you, relationships only have two outcomes. So whichever it might be, be happy.

We sort of went through that period that people have the greatest change together, saw each other at our ugliest and most handsome/prettiest moment, went through difficult times together. I dare not say our relationship was smooth-sailing, because life is a bed of roses. It is those thorns that make those roses beautiful as they are.

Happy third year anniversary fatso. Loves.

Really cannot stand you sometimes -.-

p.s. we two stingy fellas forever eating kopitiam or food court had Manhatten's Fish Market for dinner and Haagen-Daz for dessert. HAHA!

Xmas hollies

End product of my cupcakes. I must say I am pleasantly surprised. Ahahahahhaha can't help admiring my cupcakes and my photo-taking skills (good angle required yknow).

Not Good At Anything

 What I wanted to bake

 

VS What I really baked

Okay so I attempted to bake cupcakes today. I was kinda stressed up about baking these and money problems and ya. So in the end it failed, after running around numerous places to get my ingredients. Someone said I 自找麻烦. Ya I admit. I felt really lousy, like pressure from myself, and the non-supportive comments I get. Shall get up early, go to Cold Storage and try them again, for Saturday. Penniless.

The lousy feeling..................... isn't that good. I'm trying to find a part time job, (Berrylite still processing my application but I think 80% rejected) to save up. I hate the no money feeling, it sucks.

Gonna be a long day for me. I think I'm gonna sleep early and wake up early. And probably reward myself with a cup of Koi tomorrow. Hope my cupcakes succeed, though the thought of 'giving up' and 'forget it' are like floating around my head. Persevere Liew Wen Min.

Inspired

I am always easily inspired and motivated, but such stuff always never last and I really hate that part of me. I just read Samantha's blog and it really got me WHOOOAAAA again. This time I'll make this last, I promise.

I've tried tumblr and wordpress, but failed miserably cause I'm such a IT handicap. Okay from now on, I WILL STRIVEEEEEE. Hiak hiak hiak (evil laughter).

Okay I sought help from my motivator, and now she's gonna save me.