Pimple Face

*Still not getting used to this laptop's keyboard and its screen thingy sigh*

I have like six big pimples on my face currently. The swelly, red, painful kind. This does not include the small ones on the forehead and sometimes beside the nose. Worse outbreak for 17 years and 9 months.

I wonder if it's the hair dye. I don't remember being exposed to any other chemically, potential-pimple-causing stuff, other than the Wonderbrown hair dye. Pimples suck.

Went out with Vanessa today. Kinda walked around aimlessly like what I always do when I'm alone. Wasn't in a going out form/shopping form. Had this reeeeeeeeeeeally strange feeling at the tummy & above the tummy. I suspect it's serious indigestion. Felt a tad dizzy some times. Felt like puking most of the time. Cabbed home. Sigh, felt instantly better on the cab. Maybe it's the jellybean, not too sure about that.

Pimples pimples pimples. Taking extra care of my face these few days. I think I'm overdoing it. But at the same time, I scratch my face and pimple while typing (loads of germs on keypads) and while using phone. So......................

BBQ in 12+++ hours time! Kinda excited to the good food. Busy tomorrow and monday and maybe tuesday and maybe wednesday too. Oh yeah.

Wan an every one.

My weak spot is definitely kids and animals, especially cats and dogs.

In dramas, I would tear when the pets are sad, or when kids cry, but now upgrade to when the handsome male lead tears. Hahaha.

My heart also tend to cringe a bit whenever I see those stray animals. I feel like doing something for them. Giving them a bit of my love perhaps? It doesn't cost anything anyway. But I've never done anything for them. And I don't know what to do either. I've thought of joining as a volunteer at some pet shelter. Gonna go ask Samantha if she's interested (and free) to go with me. Otherwise I'll just drag Louis to go with me (help him gain some good karma at the same time too).

Sigh, at this point of time I feel so useless. Somehow animals are able to pull my heart to them more than children. Maybe it's because the animals are unable to do anything by themselves? I don't know..... Just somehow.

That's why (one of) my ambitions when I was young was to be a vet. But..... hahaha, forget it.

Guess I'm gonna email a few pet shelters later, since I won't be finding a job whatsoever till school starts. That's maybe 2-3 weeks?

On the other hand, I felt so good about myself today. It's a good day. Felt pretty & slim. Overall like not bad looking. Hehehe.

I wish for all those little ones out there to be safe and sound, and feel slightly better about themselves. They are not ugly, the world is.

Thinnest Line

Between life and death, is a really thin line.

Watched Charlie St. Cloud last week, One Day just now. Both had death related to them. And Louis' Bloomer. Death is kinda a stranger to me, till now. When I really think about it, I get all confused. The mentality of 'they will never come back' makes me cringe with confusion. It gets really scary when it comes to a point when the meaning of 'never' pricks you all of a sudden.

Life suddenly feels more brittle that ever. Well, I guess it's still a part of life that nothing and no one can dodge away from. Wonder how it feels like.....



On a side note, I'm forever feeling so inferior and insecure. Slowly changing into a different person, a character that I've never thought of being.

I've never been called a quiet person till recently. It's uncontrollable. I just wish to be alone, I don't want people to come and talk to me because it makes me feel so uneasy. When did I become such a person, unfriendly. Sigh at my life.

I don't know, I don't know.... No more thinking for today. Good night.

Random thoughts

The same thing happened again, yes again.

So jealous, so envious of other people. Richer, more clothes, more bags, cooler, more fun lives. But there seems to be this thing that reminds me to not be so shallow. These are materials that are not to die for, and even if they are, I mustn't be upset that I don't have them. Cause when you gain something, you lose something. I'll always keep that in mind.

Last day of boring trade show tomorrow, feeling like a bastard, don't know whether to do or not. Planning to go for manicure session and hair dyeing & treatment session after that, as if I have all the time in the world.
Gonna be out with Aunts & Cuz on Saturday. It has been really long.

I remember the Saturdays where my third Aunt would bring me out. I was kind spoiled by her (and my parents). Going out means can buy one thing, a toy, shirt or something, and only eating at restaurants. Luckily miser Louis Saw saved me. Coffee shops, no problem!

Goodnight everyone, x.

New Laptop

Hello all, this is my first blog post on my Fujitsu Lifebook, that will probably (definitely) gonna live with my for at least two years. :)

Was planning to get a MacBook all along, and a Canon Powershot ($400), but I realised that would be wayyyyyyy too much money. Sudden hit of sensibility I shocked myself.

First night, opening my laptop, switching it on, comparing with my current Vaio, regretted. Thought about the money, okay-ed. :)

So, previous week was food fair, then last week was it fair. Work work work. Earned a bit, made me feel happy and accomplished. Following this week is some trade show at MBS. (just keeping track, for myself)

Currently still getting used to the new keyboard, quite annoyed because the typo probability just increased by 0.8 damn it.

Have a great week, anyone who is reading this, I love you!  

Pretty

I wanna be prettier

Went shopping, (and loads of eating) with Shyanne yesterday. Wore horribly, but somehow didn't give two hoots about what other people think. Probably just one.

I am thinking of getting a camera, it's approx. $400. So I'll probably have to work extra hard this coming I.T. fair and maybe work after that at TLC, maybe with Eugenia.

Everything is better with friends.

Just a short update, bye.